Back to Work

I will be going back to work on March 1st. It seems to soon, but I really want to help out with the finances, so we can finally get out of this place. I was a little sad when I knew that it is going to be on March first but mama assured me that things will be ok and she will be taking care of the baby. I am feeling a little guilty already because I felt like I am not doing my share of taking care of the baby just like I did with Frankie. But I know we need to make sacrifices for a better future. I am sure I am not going to be working that much hours anyway because I stepped down from my full time position.

I went to work today to tell them about my return date and it was so refreshing to know that they are looking forward of my come back. One of our supervisors kept telling me that they miss me and they could really use some help. I am really caught between three things right now. I want to stay home with my babies, go back to school and I want to help Ryan out. One thing is for sure though, I will be doing a DD to our savings, so we have the money to work around the house. I am sure things will be ok and I am making use of the time that I am still home. I kept telling myself that I shouldn't feel guilty because mama is taking care of our baby and now just anyone, but I can't help it. I am sure I am going to miss my babies, but mama needs to do what she needs to do.