Acne

I woke up a little crabby today. It did not have enough rest last night. It was hot in our room and every time I sweat, I scratch my neck and I kept hitting a big zit that is sitting at the back of my neck. Yes, I have zits all over the place but most of the time I have it on my head, forehead, back and neck. There was even one time when, I got one big zit sitting on my face. It was very embarrassing. I thought I will get rid of this adult acne after using a cream that I saw in a commercial but I am wrong. I still have them and it seems like it not going anywhere. Hopefully, I will find adult acne treatments that can help me with this acne and get rid of it for good.

Flowers

When I quit my job to stay home through-out my pregnancy, I was so sad. I was sad because I truly miss working but also glad at the same time because I need to be off my feet to save my son. I was bleeding on and off and the only way to stop it was for a complete bed rest. I did cross-stitching and other things just to keep me busy. Unfortunately, my confidence was deteriorating. I did not want to go places with Ryan at the later part of my pregnancy. I thought I looked really ugly and I just want to hide in our bedroom.

Ryan did a lot of things just to show his love to me. He has encouraged me to go places with him or watch a movie but one thing that he did that touches me was when he sent me flowers for Valentine’s Day. He visited here for vday and got the flowers. He knows how much I love flowers especially red roses. When I was in the Philippines, my mother used to grow red roses and orchids and Ryan knows how I love them. Getting a dozen for Valentine’s days made me realize that things could be tough sometimes but it is nice to have a man that loves you.

Teenage

If there was one thing that I regretted so much growing up, that is not enjoying my teenage years. I did not go out as much because I was afraid that people will judge me for my looks. I had so much acne and that surely deteriorated my confidence. It was so hard to make friends because I was afraid to get rejected because of how I looked. I worried too much about it instead of enjoying my life growing up. My parents could not afford to send me to a dermatologist. If I only had the best acne treatment then I am sure I will be telling you good memories, but what can I do? The damage has been done. All I need is move on from it.

Going Out

Ryan and I agreed last night that everything that I make and what he makes for his other job will go to our savings account. We started that last years but had to take some off to pay off with the plane tickets to the Philippines. One of the problems we have is I buy food outside the house a lot especially in between school and work and Ryan does the same. It is not only healthy, it is also very fattening. If we are not going to stop, we may have to get Lipovox. That is the last thing I want to do. We really need to discipline ourselves and make something from at home that we could take with us.

Stressed

It is so hard to look young these days. There are a lot of stress that keep us from not looking young. I am only 31 but I look 40. At least, I think so. Well, I really don't like putting anything on my face at night either, so I am sure it is not helping. Some people use one of those wrinkle creams before going to bed but I don't. When I am home, I eat dinner, wash my face and sleep. Now I can understand why it is showing on my face. It is super hard when you have a lot of things in mind with very limited time.

Overnight

I am going to have another overnight at my department next week. Although I enjoy doing that with the girls, but it kind of screws up my sleeping pattern and I have a lot of things due that week. I always bring something to eat that night and share with the rest of the team. Papa will probably make kabobs and egg rolls and I will make the desserts. I will find time to go shopping. I am just glad that they gave me the people that I requested. People that actually work because I hate baby sitting adults.

Acne

Ryan and I had to stop at our local store to get something. I have been having zits here and there but some of them grew at the oddest spot. I normally do not freak out if I have some on my chin or face but this time it was in between my eye brows and it kept touching my eyes glasses. Yes it looks really scary and embarrassing that is why we had to get a topical cream, so I can hopefully get rid of them. I washed my face thoroughly last night and put some on. I was hoping it will be gone this morning but when I got up, it was still there just bigger. Sigh! They are frustrating. I thought all I have to worry when I get to this age is get an acne scar removal but I guess not. I still have a lot of acne coming out on the top of the scars I already got. I wonder when will I ever get a break from these acne.

Business in Mind

Papa already know what he is going to do when he go home to the Philippines. Although we don't know when he is going to be home because we are still waiting for something, but at least he already have something to do in mind. He seem to be very excited about it. He said he wants to be a wholesale distributor. I told him that it is indeed a very good idea. He will have his full attention to that since he won't be working full time elsewhere. There are a lot of places where he can get the products plus he knows a lot of people that he could contact if they want to sell something. I am for anything that will keep him busy while in the Philippines.

Watermelon Carving

Watermelon carving from Vid Nikolic on Vimeo.

I got this one from one of my classmates' post. Watermelon is one of my favorite fruit and who ever did this carving, he did a very good job. It is very inviting isn't it?

Sleepless

I am so glad that I was able to get some sleep for the past few days. I didn't have to work yesterday, but I still need to wake up early because I have my class in speech and it was my speech day. I actually had my lunch there and wanted to stay there, so I could start writing my paper for Astronomy but I was so tired that I had to go home. I took a nap and I felt way better. Today, Frankie and I woke up at 9:00 a.m. Papa was already talking with my mama and my sister over the internet, so I talked to them for a little bit. I went to the bathroom to wash my face and noticed how bad my eyes are. They looked like they haven't slept for weeks. I have dark circles and it looked so extremely tired. I may have to try prevera known for its powerful ingredients, but probably not now. In two weeks I will because then I will have enough rest because school is over.

Bad Breath

One of the things I hate in class is when I sit with someone who has a bad breath. I just think it is gross that I have to deal with that. There are actually things that one can get as a bad breath treatment. Some you can even get online and try it for yourself. There are also reviews that helps you decide which one to go for. Sometimes people doesn't realize that they have bad breath, but how can you tell someone to their face that they have a bad breath? I guess eventually they will know.

Fourth of July

When others are busy watching the fireworks on 4th of July, we all went to Chuck E Cheese to have Frankie run around. It was so nice because nobody was there. Frankie get to play everything that he wanted to play with. I think there were only a few cars in the parking lot. We also took the tickets we have because we wanted it to accumulate it to get Frankie something really nice. He was so excited to get a backpack with the dinner set in it and some educational supplies from Toy Story 3. We managed to get him almost 1,000 tickets which we kept since last year. He was so excited that he didn't even have dinner. He just want to run around everywhere. It was the best 4th of July yet for us.

Getting Help

I talk to a lot of older people at work. They are my loyal customers who never fail to come see me whenever they are shopping or around the area. There are times when they leave with 2-3 boxes of shoes from my department. I guess that is where my sales are coming from. Some of the ladies I talked to are single and sometimes they get around places by themselves. Most of the time too, they seek help from other people. This one lady that I talked to happened to mentioned about her ssdi and that she needs help with the processing. I hope she found someone to help her out.It is surely not easy to do the things you used to do when you get older.

Dehumidifier

Sneezing, coughing, runny nose, and teary-eyes are what I usually feel during the summer months when I keep myself inside the house. We seldom turn the air conditioner on, so when I get home from work or school, the house is usually muggy and it is a torture to me. The boys seem to be fine but not me. I have to box of Kleenex for me wherever I go around the house. I told my husband that it might be time for us to get a dehumidifier. There is so much humidity in the air and it is not only hazardous to our health, but infestation might start growing with very high humidity. With the change of season, we really have to keep up and use a humidifier during the winter and dehumidifier during the summer months.

Busy and Enjoying the Ride

Ryan and I are in the library once again and this is our fifth week together. I am taking a break. This week is not that bad because I only have one quiz and of course a speech to give on Thursday. I am done with all the papers that needs to be done for it, and all I have to do is work on the cited page and start writing the things that I should be talking. I will probably study for Astronomy either tomorrow or some other time. The quiz is not until Wednesday, and I am afraid that I might forget about it.

I am so proud of myself this semester. It is really tough because I have to study all the time, but I couldn't complain more with my grades. I am on a 95% on my Astronomy class and a 93% on my Speech class. My teacher has not encoded all of my grades in yet.

Work is also doing great. I got called in the office yesterday and got complimented for doing a great job in my department. The sales are going up and also being the one and only lead who communicates to her subordinates after a meeting conducted last week. It feels good. It really does and I feel like I have accomplished so much.

Frankie, on the other hand, is doing great. He hasn't pee on his bed for a long time now. He is speaking more and more and getting more and more clearer everyday. I can't wait when it is time for him to go.